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[17 Mar 2009|10:07pm] |
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I've neglected this for awhile now. Thought I might bring it back. lol. Anywaysss Lets see. The New year went great. I really liked this guy. Even though I felt I was moving fast.. well lets just say he gave me butterflies. I had no guy eveeer do that to me. Anyway... he stopped talking to me and I don't know why. So, I fecking moved on.
I'm taking my time with this new guy and I do like him. He has beautiful eyes and my best guy friend likes him (he thinks hes cool lol). He never likes anyone I bring alooong. lol. Good good sign.
I do feel lonely. No ones talking to me. So im blllaaahhh right now. It sucks. Im missing my keys on my laptop. fuck it.
It was saint pattys day. It was cool..
Im going now. Leave a comment if you want
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Kris
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| ahhh.. Its been years and years |
[18 Sep 2008|07:37am] |
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So.... Hows everyone doing? Good? Good. Bad? I'm really sorry. Well lets see... There's a lot to talk about really. I went to massage therapy school and graduated. I was really happy about that because it was something I wanted to do. I had a job at Petsmart but then got hurt on the job. I worked as a semi-manager in the Petcare dept, I was lead cashier/cashier, customer service, and stock. I gave them outstanding ratings! lol... I was the best in that store. How I got hurt is a different story and people found it highly funny... well so did I. I hit my head on a cash regester. It was where the money drawer comes out (so its metal). I got a semi concusion and all this other bullshit. My carpal tunnel acts up. So, it sucks.
I used to drink A LOT A LOT. Like days straight in a row and shit like that. I dont do that anymore. maybe like thursday and friday or sat or sunday. But always thursday me and matt goes out. I havent told you... I got in touch with Matt a while ago and he's one of my best best friends! I love him to death!
Believe it or not I was engaged/married. It was a weird situation. I don't really care anymore if anyone knows. Shit happens and people make mistakes. Well, I really thought I loved him but didn't. He annoyed the shit out of me and just.. it wasn't working out. I just hope my next hubby is better.
Things have been up and down for me. Its the way of life though. Atleast I have a job, car, money, friends, and family. Im missing the boyfriend part but I haven't found anyone yet. Whatever though. You know?
I have a lot of cats now. My one was pregnant and had a beautiful baby boy, named baby. The other one is expecting. The cats names are Paige, Stinky(shes pregnant), Little boy, Little girl, and baby (hes the baby of course).
I met a lot of people through the years. I had good times and bad times. I got screwed or I didn't get screwed. I loved (or love) or lost them. I got stronger when I did lose them. I guess my thing is I will NEVER regret anything I ever did in my life. I believe everything happens for a reason. I am not a leader or a follower. I am me. I am stronger then what I used to be. I am happy but also I do need to improve on money skills. But hey shit happens for a reason. I need to get up and look again.
Oh and a lot of shit that happened over the years.. all I have to say is "DRAMA = HATE". Not to anyone in particular.
Have a great one guys!
Love,
Kris
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| When you finally woke up and relized that it was all just a dream. When it was real... |
[26 Sep 2007|10:31am] |
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So, its like this. I finally relized something. This guy that i've known for awhile has to like me. I mean we were drunk but I didn't do anything, surprise! surprise!, basically thats not normal for me. We fell asleep after that, watching a movie that later on was HORRIBLE. When we woke up we were sober. I was cold and fell asleep and when he got out of the bathroom he asked me if I was cold. I said "Ya..kinda". So, he puts a blanket on me and holds me close cuddling. We eventually turn the air off or low, don't remember, and he pulls out his mattress. He says to me "This blanket is much warmer. come on". So, I go down and we cuddle or spoon (hehe...spoon) and I fell asleep for an hour. I got up and said "I gotta go home. I'm going to hear it." I give him a kiss on the lips and he returns it. After that night I try and talk about it. When I said to him that he was "happy" and I could've tried something but didn't. He said "thats good". But it was a kinda like thats good you didn't do it but I wanted you to do it kind of voice. He likes when I talk about him more like compliment him. He's a great guy. I relized more so that we connect and when that night came I felt that we were connected. Problem is that he has this "girl" that he "loves". He says "shut up.. i do love "her"". I don't know I think he likes me but this "girl" is not right for him. This is not coming from me....more so his mom. His mom told me that she drove "her" at 5am in the pouring rain to the airport and not once.. NOT EVEN ONCE did "she" say a thank you. I believe in having respect more so to adults and this "girl" doesn't have any. I don't know why he's with "her". "She" has an apartment with him but they are not together.... and he's just a great guy that doesn't deserve "her". If "she" doesn't offer respect to the mother then what does that tell you? I'm so confused. What do you guys think? because tomorrow i'm going to get balls and call his mother and talk to her about this. Maybe even see if I can teach his bro some guitar as well. Oh and his bro and mom LOVE me and they met me only ONCE. Thats crazy..haha... okay.. what do you all think?
Tell me what you all think?
Love,
kris
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| Okay...so... cheesecake is okay |
[11 Sep 2007|11:47am] |
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So, I've been watching on and off this show called Sunset Tans. It made me think of getting into business again. I think I want to go back to College again for it. But not now since I don't have the money plus soon I have to start paying off a school loan. Kinda gay but I have to do it. Lets see what else is there? I got out of my writers block stomp and I hope to begin writing soon. Tomorrow I am going away for a couple days. I can't wait because I am so fed up with were I live I want to cry my eyes out. PLUS I feel so fucking lonely. I've got friends but they are always working and I understand that. So, I NEEED TO GET THE HELL AWAY FROM HERE FOR atleast a COUPLE OF DAYS!!!!! AHHHH. I am so going out of my mind.
But the good thing is.. is that I work at a vet so my kitties are going to sleep there for a few days cause I don't want them to cry and I want them to get what they need. They are not declawed so it makes it difficult to have them upstairs since the others don't have claws.
Other then that I think I am okay and I know this is short. But I must get packing and also I need to get stuff together for the cats.
Oh and always remember "DRAMA IS LIKE HAVING YOUR PERIOD ALL OVER AGAIN! (IF YOUR A GIRL) "
Love,
Kris
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| I feel sick |
[28 Aug 2007|09:58am] |
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Not feeling good. Not sure what to write. Will edit this later!
Kris
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| david gahan and paul kayes should steal me away |
[08 Aug 2007|10:54am] |
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Damnit! Only if they didn't have wifes or kids. Man I'd bang them. I'd bang them anyway. hmmmm.. Can I go to the UK and such? Man I'm robbing a band and going there now with a case of twisted tea and other fine idems while I fly first class and drink crazy rich expensive champane. oh ya....... So, hows life people? Anythign new and exciting lately? Not me either. I'm kind of bored. Oh I saved a cat last year and now I work at a kennel in the back and I love it! Alright gotta jet. LOve yas!
Kris
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| ya..so... |
[14 Oct 2005|02:05pm] |
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Its been awhile and my creative mind got a hold of me. I had to watch a movie or read a book to pull me back into that phase. Thats a good thing. I am just here. I lost a job and then got another one. I working 2 jobs now. HA and another daycare. they are cool people.
I met a guy. He's cute, funny, and random. I wish he could be mine... but not gonna happen.lol.
Love,
Kris
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| The longest time |
[14 Jul 2005|10:51pm] |
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I felt weak and powerless. Its been that way for a long time. In my mind I suffer a way that no one can think. It sucks sometimes to think this way about myself and why i would do to think such a weak and powerless thought. I love sometimes to think that. Fuck it. Yes.... FUCK IT! I would love to tap that ass you mother fucker! ahh.. anger,.. Yes.. REVENGE against a way of acceptence. Yes.. A weird reason to update. But hgey.. yes
Hello LAUREN
Love,
Kris..
A perfect circle
"Weak and Powerless"
Tilling my own grave to keep me level
Jam another dragon down the hole
Digging to the rhythm and the echo of a solitary siren
One that pushes me along and leaves me so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Someone feed the monkey while I dig in search of China
White as Dracula as I approach the bottom
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Little angel go away
Come again some other day
The devil has my ear today
I'll never hear a word you say
He promised I would find a little solace
And some piece of mind
Whatever just as long as I don't feel so
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless over you
Desperate and Ravenous
I'm so weak and powerless
over you
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| Wow.. |
[03 Apr 2005|03:02pm] |
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I haven't updated this journal in FOREVER. Let's see here...
I had a life of sex.. Kind of crazy.
Then before that I got a job at another Daycare. Cute kids. I work with 2-4 year olds.
Umm... I met this guy named Tommy. He's mine now. He asked me out.. So, fucking sweet! I swear.
I'm turning 20 in 2 days! Thank you Jenn for my gift :)
Umm.. Wow.. i think i'm going to come back and update this.
I'm happy. I'm in a relationship with a guy I care about and that I really like. He's so sweet and my family likes him. I like him. Oh god i'm so happy!
I'm tired and he hasn't come on or called. So.. laying down.
Much Love,
Kris
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| No.. wait... |
[01 Feb 2005|05:59am] |
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Hey Jenn! I'm updasting just for you! *points at you*
Okay.. So, 2 days ago at night me, jenn and lauren were watching Napolean Dynamite. It was interesting. I couldn't hear it that well cause my dvd player sucks ass.
Then the next day I went to Mike's. I got a job offered to me. I might be working with kid's again. I helped him clean and then came home. Fell asleep, got up, rped, and updated this jawn.
So, there you go. My little update.
Good day everyone! :)
Kristen
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| I'm here to Bitch |
[02 Jan 2005|01:58am] |
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Right now I'm sort of pissed.
I am pissed that my friend's think that my home is boring and that's why I don't let anyone sleep over.. anymore because "i'm boring". That's right. Fuck it....
Next is that I think it's so cool that they get to sleep on MY fucking beds when I have a fucking bad back. Thank you.
Ranting is very good.
I just wish that I wouldn't have this.. See.. I'm not keeping it inside.. Maybei'll go outside and die. I need a fucking cig...
Much love... ya right.. I'm still scared..
Kris
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[18 Dec 2004|05:03pm] |
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Somethings have been good and something's have sucked. But oh well. Let's see...
Going to Bill's grave on Monday. Think i'm going to write him a letter. Miss him. :(
Miss you BILL! Lots of hugs!
Love,
Kris
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| Beautiful Green Day Lyrics |
[07 Dec 2004|02:23am] |
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"Wake Me Up When September Ends"
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends
here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are
as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
Kris
PS: I think i'm gonna buy the Green Day "American Idiot" Cd. It sounds cool.
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[26 Nov 2004|02:45pm] |
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Is it when you thought that it is over it never is. When you thought that your company wouldn't be satisfied. It was not. And doesn't that sucko me it does. I don't remember when I thought it would be nice. Someone's here. Is it invading my space well? Is it suppose to? I'm not really sure. But this is a long thing that thinks. Its a memory that never thinks. Hold on. Am I thinking? Keep pressing these keys all wrong. It is kind of scary though. I never thought of really being alone till now. A constant reminder of one. He's looking over me. I suppose.
I am mad at the fact that I cannot say 'I love you' I guess that means nothing to certian someone's. But I guess I am nothing again. Fuck it. I'm done.
Heres the entry lauren.
Kris
Part of a song:
I can taste the tears falling
The bitterness inside you calling
Yearning for a liberation
Emotional emancipation
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| It's 7:30 and I have to pee |
[04 Nov 2004|04:30pm] |
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Well, the title explains it. I mean it is really 7:30 and I really do have to pee. Except I am now typing on the school's crappy ass computers. But thats okay because I am tired. Anyway, I felt like shit today. Only because of what I saw and what i was thinking. It's true that now I am not here anymore and I really do feel like just offing myself. No I don't want attention people and No don't worry about me because I prob. won't do it. Maybe I just want to get drunk or something. So, I can forget everything and just dose off. i hate it. i miss Bill. I do. I almost cried in class. It really does hurt that he's not here anymore and that I have to like someone that doesn't like me obviously. Wow... I spelled that right. But whatever is possible. I have to pee and I have to wait. Not to wait to pee. Just to wait.
Lonilness sucks ass.. I rather be fucking confused then lonely.
Love,
Kristen
I'll leave you with a song I felt like it was me. Its a me song...
depeche Mode *freestate*
I can hear your soul crying
Listen to your spirit sighing
I can feel your desperation
Emotional deprivation
Let yourself go
Let yourself go
Let your feelings show
Picking up the conversation
Deep in your imagination
Tune into the lonely voices
Talking of their only choices
Let yourself go
Let yourself go
Let your spirit grow
Step out of your cage
And onto the stage
It's time to start
Playing your part
Freedom awaits
Open the gates
Open your mind
Freedom's a state
I can taste the tears falling
The bitterness inside you calling
Yearning for a liberation
Emotional emancipation
Let yourself go
Let yourself go
Let your senses overflow
Step out of your cage
And onto the stage
It's time to start
Playing your part
Freedom awaits
Open the gates
Open your mind
Freedom's a state
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what a crazy weekend... wow... oh my..
I hate what I think now. Oh well.
I love paige my kitty.
I'll wait.
LOVE,
kRISTEN
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| Run! Run! Run! |
[28 Oct 2004|11:31pm] |
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So, thank you to Louise and Jamie they told Dennis I like him. I do. i will admit it. I just am shy and I gte all blushy now. It's bad. He might like me too. Which I think is a possibility.
I need to wash my clothes. Talk to you all later.
Visit me at Halloween Adventure tomarrow 10 am till 5:30 pm.
Much Love,
Kris
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